happy halloween!

he doesnt want you

i hope so / me too

 the following insert is from Estelle's livejournal, 17th august 2005.
Insect eating man
Well yesterday fuckface and i got stoned and went to tesco's and had a subway, we came home and got stoned a bit more then he went off to work. I got more stoned did lots of washing up and watched a film that wasn't that good. Fuckface came home...the time went really quick he didnt get in till well after 2, we had a bong and went to bed.

Wierd dreams again last night,thats 4 nights in a row, this one one was different again but similar in ways too. Anyway, we went to town and andrew decided to have half his hair shaved off. The first barber wouldn't do it so we had to go to affecks, the guy there was cool. He did it and said it was a great hairdo. We went to Boots and i bought new make up and some face wash, andrew bought some red hair dye. Went to Lush. Got in, had a bong. Dyed the half of andrews hair red. Ate. Fed Cat.

Now fucky has gone back to work. I wish i could have gone with him to see the look on his work mates faces. Lol. It looks so good.

Tonight i'm going to tidy up, bathe, then do some reading whilst smoking spliffs, i need to get some good adeas for my dissertation. And it's always better to read Kafka when stoned i find anyway.

Right.

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It was probably the best time of my life, and the best hairstyle I ever had. We were at uni and living in Manchester, I worked in a bar on Canal Street during the summer and we spent the time having lots of fun. Throughout uni, my nickname was 'Fuck Face'.


- read her journal! its not been updated since last year, but it's a funny read and goes back to 2004!

STRESS

I used to think I was a really stressed out person, and really negative, until I lived with my brother in London for a year, and realised what real stress and negativity was. Living with him really put things into perspective. I hate speaking ill of my family, and it's not a comment to be derogatory at all. He now lives in Hong Kong and I hope he is much happier there, but after living with him in London, I realised I could never put a price on my health, and would never do a job which jeopardised my health and my mental stability, and that whatever it is I do musn't in any way suppress who I am and the dreams that I have. I never want to put things on hold again. It's made me glad, in time, to be doing what I do. Too often, and especially in London, I was phased by young graduates and professionals who were working in big businesses and stuff, but now I see that as not something I'd want to be or do. I want to preserve my youth and spirit, and don't want my soul sucked out by some corporation, completely drained and bored by the time I'm 40.

Recently, I've noticed more things that put life into perspective, and also, I've met people who are either incredibly negative and full of stress or who breeze through life happily and patiently. There is no secret I guess, just coping mechanisms and self acceptance. I think a lot of my understanding of life now is simply down to age. I am so glad that I have finally got out of what was emotional turmoil and unnessesary stress in my late teens and early twenties. I guess I've been more of a depressed person than a stressed person, but since things have changed in my life this year, I am not depressed at all. My situation was entirely different six months ago, and I have since learnt at work that I love a bit of stress, it's good for you.

Today is my day off and in all grand day off style I stayed in bed till 10, had pizza for breakfast, going to watch some dvds and drink lots of water. My little brother came back from Afghanistan last week by the way, and isn't going back. Talking of stress and work... I don't think it gets much worse than being in one of the most dangerous parts of the world for your job.

smell ya later

There are lots of new products at work at the moment, and there are some new contenders on my list of favourites. Actually, there has been a whole entire shift in taste. I've surprised even myself. Now I'm not one to harp on about Lush products on a blog, I don't review anything, and as much as I love the products and that of having good, youthful, you'd-never-guess-my-age skin, I don't want to become one of those awful Lush geeks who substitute bubble bars and shampoo for a social life. My life isn't going to end if I don't have it all. But seeing as I've been spending most of my life at work, and being impressed with what's new, it seems logical to share what I am enjoying at the moment.

Bubbleroons / Maccaroons

These look like maccaroons. The three 'flavours' are called Yuku, Green and Rose Jam. I'm particulary fond of Rose Jam as I like rose oil, and believe it is something to use when feeling seductive and sensual. It was a very lovely bath indeed. It has a sweetness that qualifies the 'jam' part of it's name.

Snowcake, Melting Snowman

I never really cared for the almond marzipan smell of Snowcake last year, or any year, but now I feel like I can't get enough, and the snow man melt is perfect for the dry, irritated winter skin I will get. Sometimes I get eczema  so it should help with that.

Calacas, Lady Catrina, Skullduggery

Halloween is upon us and the new Halloween products are out. Lady Catrina and Calacas jelly are back but the bathbomb is new - Skullduggery. It's shaped as a sugar skull, as the theme at Halloween is more Mexican Day of the Dead. The bomb smells very fruity - lots of lime and neroli. It makes me feel very happy. I'm going to buy a whole bunch of them to give as presents. I love the whole day of the dead thing. It's a shame cos Fran is having a day of the dead house party in sheffield which I could of potentially gone to but it's tradition that I party here in Birmingham, and have already booked tickets.

Cameron's name for the products:

Calacas - 'Cactus mixed with Caucasion'

Glogg - 'Bjork'

Snowcake - 'Snowflake'

trying stuff out

 some old products from the past.

maybe it was just the cat

Beautiful October

Some pictures I just took today...

four eyed bicycle face

Moscot Hyman glasses.....

and on and on and on and on....

so I'm basically trying to 'clear out' my pictures folder for this blog instead of hoarding loads of images and then not being able to decide what to write about. Ideally, when I think about it, I should be using Tumblr, but then I dont like it for some reason. I feel like it's shamelessly nit picking other people's ideas with the whole reblogging thing but then again what is my blog about exactly if it isn't other people's pictures?

I recently sorted out my blog and deleted lots of posts. I've been having difficulty thinking about what to write because I think I am much happier now and before I was always banging on about stuff to do to make my life better and what things I wanted to do in the future. I feel like a lot more makes sense to me now so I don't need to worry. I'm happier for a lot of reasons. For starters I got promoted so I'm working full time and get more money. I'm also in the process of another tax rebate and that means nearly £1000 more. I've been incredibly motivated at work to make bonus so therefore I have been on auto-positive thinking. I've got things to look forward to and I'm going to get my own place very soon. There are other things too but I don't want to bore you (whoever you are).

anyway here are some more Halloween costume ideas.... would love to know what everyone is going as this year?

 Michael Myers dressed as ghost.

 ghostbusters.... 

 the Welsh

Aliens. Matching ones.

a mouse (durrr)

More Outfits

As some of you know, I've decided to go as Zorro this Halloween as it's easy, stylish and suits my demeanor. My other option was Puss in Boots, but that seemed complicated and expensive.

The plan for Halloween is as follows: Drinks at mine will include Dark n Stormys and I will draw on my own mustasche. We will then proceed to town where I will frequent a number of bars. Then a cameo at Face followed by a gurn-a-thon at Chic... and a little party afterwards in Mark's squat. We will see you there!

Cocaine seems to be a popular contender 

Or I might just go as this woman here:
Or just hope to turn out as her by the end of the night. My new hero.

Party Season is Upon Us

Halloween is in 30 days.... who's playing dress-up?