Things are going really well and I guess the natural optimist in me is on full contentment mode with the unexpected new direction my life took recently, which then made me realise that it's easy to know when to do the right thing for your happiness, and that's by choosing the good and sensible options in life's decisions.
My relationships with people at work that weren't so good in the past have vastly improved. This is all due to the new perspective I have been given not by looking after Steve but for being a friend, and for him sharing and understanding the wisdom he has. He has been my hero. I'm financially better off because I've paid my over draft, and the weird thing was I paid it off reluctantly because I wanted to buy things but when I eventually paid it off and saw the £1000 gone to the bank, I felt an overwhelming sense of security. I have moved from Moseley to Four Oaks to live with my mates in Pussy Palace so I've realised too how important my friends are and how being around people is good for us all. It's near Steve so I can care for him and that is my intention until the very end. My friendships of everyone I know are becoming more strong and loyal and I've rejected the old attitude I had which was that I was better off on my own. I'm seeing my brother a lot more, and I spend more time with Hayley because I always love being with her and I always feel so lifted after spending time with them. I've seen Emma a lot more, am back in touch with Sian and just feel that I am there for everyone and everyone is there for me, and it feels fantastic, that for the first time ever, in my life, I believe that people really like me for who I truly am.
Whilst I do have long term plans, I've learnt that things change all the time so there's no point having a plan set in stone. Short term plans are far more effective, and they involve improving my actual health, body, my skin, and help the girls as well. I have my Leica on it's way soon after repair and I intend to buy a new DSLR camera and a laptop, so I can really start my work. I'm bursting with ideas, with photos, fashion, styling, writing, interiors etc etc.
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