I've had quite the weekend. On Friday night I went to Sammi and Paris's and got absolutely FUCKED OUT MY FACE. The night was getting really heavy by the time I had to leave for work, and it was one of those where I kind of wanted to stay, but I am usually on my own anyway, it's different not having a sidekick by your side.
I then went to work for one of the busiest Saturdays of the year so far, if not the busiest (and they only get busier). I panicked in the morning because I still felt totally wired but I think I managed to pull off normal. In fact, I worked incredibly hard ALL day and even managed to eat. I took great pleasure in finding out that a certain member of staff is LEAVING and therefore I don't have to feel so annoyed all the time with a person who to me represents everything that is WRONG with the youth and culture of today in the country.
I went to the Canadian's in Selly Oak and stayed there till today. Selly Oak is a shit hole, He bought me a toothbrush with spongebob on it and we had a good time together as usual. He broached the subject of making what we have a bit more serious, or wanted to at least know what I thought of where it was going, but I just said I didn't know, because I do. On the one hand, I do like him, and we do get along and there is something, but on the other I feel put off by the fact that I am leaving Birmingham in 4 months if that, and that I have a certain idea, an imagination, of the kind of guy that I would be happy with, the kind of guy I am going to Brighton to find one day, and it's nothing like him.
i want to be set free and i cannot wait. in 1 months time it will be only 3 months till i can. i feel like i want the summer, and i want to wear jeans and t-shirts again and to do whatever i want and have no boundaries, especially the ones set by myself.
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