End of Year QUIZ

1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before? I moved out to live by myself on my own

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I always make new resolutions but I never remember to keep them. I guess I just resolve to be a better person, to do good things for people, and to strive to be a good person. My health is pretty important this year and stopping addictive patterns.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Not that I knew about

4. Did anyone close to you die? Sam Dixon, a friend of mine from Manchester

5. What countries did you visit? Menorca (Spain)

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012? Stability in my life, a hand to help others through their lives, good causes to live for, productivity, happiness, love.

7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? My holiday week, the beginning of my relationship with, when I broke up with Aaron, October time when I transitioned and when everything began to make sense.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Not ending it all!! Seriously though, it was just surviving and learning from mistakes, misfortunes, harm and people trying to hurt me.

9. What was your biggest failure? I guess letting down my manager at work, and letting so many other people down in different ways. Letting paranoia and doubt take over even when I was right.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I had 2 nervous breakdowns... depression was terrible, chest infection, sciatica... depression went away though...

11. What was the best thing you bought? a jacket

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Parents for supporting me when they didn't need to, Hayley for being a friend as well as a girlfriend to my brother, and for dealing with him in the first place, Mark for being by my side and listening to me babble, Daisy for being a good friend and nit thinking I am crazy, or at least not letting on that she does, Katie for her support and belief during a time when it was so easy to not believe me, The Canadian for looking after me, Sammi for providing me with acceptance and a good time, a fresh perspective when everything blows up in your face. x

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? Myself, both my ex's this year, certain people I work with for their backstabbing and sabotage, the townsfolk of Solihull for being utterly disgusting and vile, my brothers for their horrid behaviour towards each other and for their lack of respect. Greg for the way he treated his parents on holiday.

14. Where did most of your money go? drugs, rent, clothes, taxis

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? My holiday in Son Bou, moving out to be by myself, though it didn't live up to it all, yet turned into something quite special.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012? There are too many.

a) happier or sadder? I am much happier and intend to keep it that way.

b) thinner or fatter? I guess I am the same, I get bigger and then I lose it all.

c) richer or poorer? richer in the mind, poorer in the bank, though I am actually financially richer as I have savings now.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Positive thinking? Yoga? Things that would heal and help? I don't know.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Class A's!!!! I've prematurely aged myself and my bank has suffered immensely.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? I will see through Christmas day and then return to my normal life again (update: I slept through it).

21. Did you fall in love in 2012? No, just infatuation and lust I guess. I have a good idea of the kind of love I Want and the kind of guy to provide it, and he wasn't Aaron as much as I adored him at the time. I wonder what he's doing now.

22. How many one-night stands? Five - all terrible disgusting mistakes.

23. What was your favourite TV program? Simpsons forever... I enjoyed aspects of the Big Bang Theory because Aaron loved it and secretly cos I think Leonard looks like David which would make me...Penny? I watched the entire series of True Blood but only because Aaron liked it so much. Simpsons forever!

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate people, I am either indifferent or I strongly dislike and avoid at all costs.

25. What was the best book you read? I didn't read any books this year, which is terrible. I will read more next year. I promise.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery? The Waterboys!

27. What did you want and get? Independence to a degree, a futon bed, perspective on life, finally.

28. What did you want and not get? oh everything!

29. What was your favorite film of this year? We Need to talk about Kevin, The Help, Happy Together

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 28, and I did nothing for it.

31. What would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Satisfying is a pointless aim, I think that things were too far gone for me to be 'satisfied'. What I mean is, things were bad, satisfaction would of been too much of a privilege for me to even think about.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012? There wasn't so much a concept, though I am far more comfortable with my style now. I will say that the more I suffered this year, the more effort I made in my looks. I think I was needing a distraction. I was often conflicted with what to wear, and have gone through the smartness and have decided to just wear what I want, I like to put a fashionable spin on anything if I feel, but these days I feel like I can wear whatever I want and be comfortable, happy, and stylish and just myself without restriction or following a trend.

33. What kept you sane? Music, weed, people, food, mother's love

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you admire the most? Tilda Swinton

35. What political issue stirred you the most? Couldn't care less about politics anymore, I will vote Green however. I think environmental issues are far more important than gay marriage, and intend to get a lot more involved next year.

36. Who did you miss? I miss myself

37. Who was the best new person you met? Kerry from work is pretty cool

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012: Do not underestimate your own strength, the chances are you can make it.

39. Song lyrics to sum up the year: 'too high, too far, too soon, you saw the whole of the moon!'