I have a list of new years resolutions I wrote and failed to transcribe or even think about on here up until now. Actually, going through the list, I am surprised how much I have stuck to, or at least starting doing around now anyway, which I don't need to include on what I've written here. This list was compiled during this weekend away. While I was thinking about stuff, something would pop up in my head as an idea to help towards the whole moving on process from something bad and the whole self exploration = happiness idea. There's a lot I want to do to make my life better. I know how bad I can feel when I feel really bad, and I will tell you one thing, I don't enjoy wallowing in it. That's why I am so desperate now to get on with my life and enjoy it, and put myself first and just do it.
New Job Abroad
okay so, this might not happen this year. But I thought about it, and I'm sick of dreaming of living abroad somewhere warm and free of chavs. I'd like a job to enable me to travel, so I applied for British Airways. I am looking into other things. But it's the ultimate thing to do, travel, and the ultimate thing to look forward to.
To write draft of 'The Party Bird'
Partly because I want to just get doing something creative, the Party Bird idea has been just an idea now since 2010.
To write up short story 'The Swimmer'
Something to finish off during what I am hoping will be a hot, sexy summer. Something to also do to rediscover myself in that way.
To start to learn a foreign language
Because I want to.
To join the Birmingham LGB Orchestra in April
Again, creativity helps the wounded heart and damaged mind and also, it's a good way to socialise and have fun.
To find out about film making and screenplay writing
Lots of ideas here.
To get a new tattoo
I have some ideas here but I don't want to get anything too crazy
To get cyst removed
On my chin. You can't see it at all. But I can feel it. And it makes me feel ugly.
To research Buddhism and Inner Peace
I just want to find out what it's all about
To maintain a new and enlightening diet - practice cooking.
I want to be really creative in the kitchen and be a 'good cook' at the same time as healthy. I'm sick of my diet which is at the moment orange juice, pizzas, wine and marlboro lights.
To learn to drive
Because I think it will boost my confidence. esp if I get a car. will help with job applications and will be able to just buy a car when I can afford it when I am older, rather than think, i want a car but hey I need to learn first.
To set up a savings account and follow rules from Automatic Millionaire
I need to save for my future, I'm getting too old now to be pissing it up the wall every month.
To not be emotionally independent
a lot of practice in self belief and stuff, a lot of reading I guess, should make me a stronger person. i cant be emotionally dependent anymore, it's up to me to create my own happiness no matter how much you do for anyone else.
To change name
I hate my name. always have always will.
Work on photography
I keep forgetting that, ultimately, this is what I want to do for a living.
Get a new phone and an iPod.
I'm sick of being behind with technology and not having music to listen to when im walking out and about.
Spend more time with Grandparents
cos when they're dead, I will regret not doing this and I will miss them
To write more letters and read more books
writing helps me, when I write, I clear my mind, especially if someone else will read what I wrote. and reading more books.... I should always have one book on the go
Escape Birmingham
Farewell, stink town
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